Being a mother is the most difficult thing I’ve ever done. Those of you with small children, enjoy this time with them. There’s something to be said for being able to control when and what your child eats, where they go, when they sleep, what they watch, etc. Yeah, I know as parents we are supposed to regulate these things for as long as our kids are at home. But, let’s be real. We can’t be there every second of the day. We have no control over who they talk to in school or what they do at someone elses house. How I long for the days when something as simple as a new pair of Power Rangers shoes could light up their faces. What would I give to go back and spend an extra five minutes with them at the park or let them rollerblade in the basement. Or, read another bedtime story. Life was so much simpler then. It breaks my heart to think of all of the things I didn’t do, was too busy to do or had no interest in doing. I hope they don’t think about those things.
It seems silly to think about things which aren’t possible. But, I can’t help it. I would change so many things if I could. My God, time passes by so quickly and life moves so fast. I wish I had taken the time to enjoy the little moments. I wish I hadn’t wished the days away. I wish I could go back.